Still the same..

Its all still the same,
just the outer world changed,
inside, am more,
expanding and ready to explode.

Places changed,
its more teary again.

Take me somewhere,
get it out of me,
save her,
and let me help myself,
by giving me euthanasia
or just catharsis.

Now it has, but why..

Its end of August 2011, one year and its the same, as I said:

"Absurd it may get with time,

will be just left by myself,

alone, deserted and wandering in my mind.'

Very True Indeed...

Need a Vent

Jab jab dard ka badal chaya,

jab gum ka saya lehraya,

jab aansu palkon tak aaya,

jab yeh tanha dil ghabraya,

humne dil ko yeh samjhaya,

dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai,

duniya me yu hi hota hai,

yeh jo gehre sannate hai,

waqt ne sabko hi baatte hai,

thoda gum hai sabka qissa,

thodi dhup hai sabka hissa,

aankh teri bekaar hi namm hai,

har pal ek naya mausam hai,

kyun tu aise pal khota hai,

dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai...

25th July 2011

N-c-I-h-D-a-H-v-I-e  conversation..

Suffocating Life

What u did,

was what i hated and disliked the most,

it has penetrated deep inside,

taking a toll.

Its going to be a lot more tougher,

than it was before,

and what I assumed.

Maddening and fearing,

it has become,

each breath is a pain,

love is all transforming into hatred.

26th July 2011

Ye pal jo ye wo haddse hai, 

ya phir likhe yu hi the,

taye hue the pehle hi,

ya phir ye taye nahi the...

AB - Sw-b-heart-day

Shattered and numb..