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A wish to have the sanity of mind and ability to act wise,

but unfortunately this feeling keeps on strengthening with time,

the wait seems to be endless now,

Will he ever get in to the flow?

Couldnt get an apt Title...

What I deeply realised today is that this blog may be actually of great use to showcase yourself or maybe, it could have much more meaningful and knowledagble stuff than what it is right now (full of depressants). Till date my blogs have always been about my fears, feelings, puppy loves, anxiety, mostly acting as a downer (although it has given a vent to my feelings) or to summarize, it has always about my state of heart and self confessions. Seldom have I wrote anything apart from the above mentioned states.

No one knows about this and even I wouldnt like anyone to. Its was just a feeling which prevailed upon me that its time to make it public and use the blog extensively. This feel actually started when one of my close friends wrote a post and spread that around, among our group of friends. And it was good, brimming with optimism and having the confidence with the self beilef needed, which I found really impressive.

The current state of mine is biased towards putting it to good use (at least for me). I just hope it continues till eternity otherwise the fluctuation would be devastating for me.

Meri arzoo...

Kya kare zindagi, isko hum jo miley

iski jaan kha gaye, raat din ke giley

raat din ke giley

meri aarzoo kameenee, mere khwab bhi kaminey

ik dil se dosti thi, yeh hazoor bhi kaminey

the hamesha se kaminey.....

J....A.....R.....T...

Everyone is Gifted, but not everyone opens the package....

Am Scared...

I am actually scared of what I think may not have happened or it might have taken place.
Coming into this real world after good old puppy days has made me realised that lifes not a piece of cake. To make it precise, for me, it feels like as if i was living in a ivory tower, and now things have unfolded in such a way and such pace, that I am really scared that what is next.
A simple call at any odd time of the day aggravates my belief and I am left pounding, although everything may be hunky dory. I have absolutely no idea that am I the only coward in this or everyone faces the same situation. When would I get rid of this fear which send jitters down my spine, but I really wouldnt want this at the cost of anyone?
What we all lose, can never be re gained. I was too late to realise this......and it was all shatters.
Was it worth it?