Opinionated world's

Till now, it seems, have encountered a lot of views which could be put up in just two different worlds. One of them says go and just do it. I am still a bit perplexed that whenever this opinion would have been devised, were the concerned circumstances considered at all. I bet, they were not.
Anyway, the second one, some say that first get your ass kicked to get yourself there at a certain level, where you could easily give it a start and then enjoy being on the way. It seems like a bit of compromise but little practical too, considering the huge amount of fellas using this approach.
There is a very thin line between these two worlds, I think I am just balancing on that, and once the decision is made (which looks very hard), I will be jumping onto one of the zones.
The very obvious question now, how long its gonna take?

One year on record

There's not much difference when looked back exactly a year ago, things seems to be almost same, still couldn't found what I had been seeking since long, and don't know how many more such excruciating years its gonna take. Seems too bad. Years are passing by and am still there..

Log off 1315 Causeway

Time to log off. The moment I have been waiting for has arrived, and contrary to what I had imagined, it wasnt that bad. Thinking of tomorrow, it seems that same old torn stuff will just congest my mind, dont want this, but again, the cycle will repeat, I never wanted to be here, when I was there, and now when here, I dont want to be there. How unfortunate? There are only 2 options, either you need to accept this or find your long term craving and just do it...Mercyyyy

02:51 31 The Causeway

A completely different day or rather night, a different country, never thought would be mired in such situation, which I had always been afraid of, but time has really passed by, without even ruffling much feathers, which I had expected or rather anticipated. Couldnt have ever imagined myself to be a part of such idiotic episode, but on the contrary, it was rather my own cowardice which pushed me to give in. I can still feel those scary moments which I had to go through because of which I am here. But things changed once I dropped in here, the first day was too alien, and then moving on, it was quite okay, not as bad as I had expected it to be. It might be because of the fellas with me here or may be because of not having another option except to just do it. Although it doesnt appeal at all, but still, I dont know, the feeling has really been complicated.
As usual, I am unaware of what should happen, I am just letting it go with the flow, but this is something which takes a toll. After all till when, its been ages, it seems, this really makes me go short of words and alters my mood. So thats it, nothing more...