Hope-less-ness

It is bound to come back,

how much u resist and try,

u cant just escape it,

few hours pass by calmly,

n then the turbulence hits you.

Paining, it is real hard,

for it is not easy to let go,

u have no control over it,

except to suffer defeat.

U think u have conquered it,

but thats the oblivion u r living in.

the moment it sneaks,

u feel tattered.

The heart beats at a faster pace,

but how long it will be in the race.

maddening it has become,

please just stop this chase.

I know this is a hope against hope,

but this is just to avoid this tiring pain.

Feels all alone, just loneliness as an accompaniment,

now i just think of him, as he is the supreme one,

who will take care of my future and present.

Let it be a Lie

Magical it was,

sitting next to her,

feeling the breath,

if asked my last wish on this earth,

would want those moments back,

frozen in time, forever.

On the way back,

stirred she was emotionally,

the stop came, it was time for her to move,

stood off at an increasing distance,

making me used to the absence.

We both knew there was something missing,

there was no courage to ask,

as if she never wanted to leave,

we stood there,

just to deceive.

Trying to elongate our discussions,

if somehow we could take it long enough.

but there were pauses, silent noise,

Those unsaid words.

We knew it,

but couldn't take it out,

both of us.

I took the lead,

said goodbye, leaving her in darkness.

Realized, when back at home,

something was not going right,

that something has been missing badly.

Wish any of us could start,

but I guess both were afraid,

a call was desperately needed,

but I was completely dismayed.

There were glances galore at the phone,

wish I could get a call,

an hour went by, 

but nothing happened at all.

I couldn't bear that loneliness,

it was eating me up,

decided to hit the bed.

Sat and lied calmly,

my eyes beginning to close,

and suddenly I realised,

there was a call, and it was her.

It was such a relief,

experienced never before,

took the call, talks went by,

tucked my boat to the shore.

We wanted more and we both knew,

but we couldn't say it,

could feel the love in her voice,

n so could she, the end came,

we had to hang up.

24/10/10

A lot Like Love - Mad about You

Feel the vibe, feel the terror, feel the pain.
Its driving me insane
I cant fake
For god sakes why am I
Driving in the wrong lane
Trouble is my middle name
But in the end I am not too bad
Can someone tell me if its wrong to be so mad about
You
Mad about you.